No it isn’t February and I haven’t completely lost my mind. It’s Sunday, AGAIN! I feel like I’m stuck in an endless fucking loop. Every day is the same, over and over and over again. This summer hasn’t been fun or easy.
For anyone else who has hit perimenopause like a brick wall, I salute you! This is so fucked up! The birth control pills they put me on to stop the hemorrhaging have caused the dementors to descend and I spent all of yesterday feeling like a shell of a person with no will to live. Where is Lupin with his chocolate bar when you need him? (Yes, JK is a TERF but she’s not making money off my references and I can’t unread the books or unwatch the movies now that we all know what a piece of shit she is!)
The other PM symptom that is kicking my ass is the heart palpitations. My heart can’t seem to stick to the beat. Its either out there dancing like Elaine on Seinfeld or it slows down like it doesn’t know I’ve got shit to do! Part of my EDS experience is cardiac autonomic dysfunction and PM has really had fun with that one. After a little research it sounds like a pacemaker might be in my future.
It’s now 12:45 PM and I still haven’t had my coffee (relax, it’s mostly decaf) so I’m going to keep this short.
Leave me a comment and tell me about how hormones are fucking up your life!